When G-d opens a window he closes a door

I have some good news and I have some really really bad news.

I was given a position at a law firm and am taking the offer. This is a huge step for me and the best I can make right now. I am studying for the LSAT in December and am extremely excited to make this change. I have always wanted to be a lawyer; I remember as a child going to my dad's mock trial classes when he taught at Cor Jesu. This firm is amazing, Garnholz and Ricci, and full of powerful women who I'm sure will change my life. Lynn Ricci was my college professor who I greatly admired and I am honored to be working for her.

I also begin using Brian Jensen as my coach on Oct. 1st. This is another important part of my life. I am finally taking racing seriously and know that I am in good hands. I enjoy having a training schedule because I can see my progress (or lack thereof) and track it.

The bad news - my brother has refused treatment and is somewhere in St. Louis with a dead cell phone and maybe a few pairs of pants-no car, no money. This is the first time I have really discussed any of this to more than 3 people, and the reason for that is because I don't have the energy to say it. I have so many thoughts and feelings I could burst, but bringing them out of me is too exhausting. I still haven't cried, haven't punched a wall, maybe drove my scooter a bit too fast in the park or hammered too hard up a hill on my bicycle, but really haven't expressed my true feelings. I guess I'm just waiting for it to finally happen and am not forcing the emotions out of me.

I also don't have too many people to talk to. I can, of course, talk to my parents but they are exhausted as well. My Danaesy listens well and understands, and some other friends sort of understand...but really I'm wondering if I should go back to the psychologist my family has been going to. I really don't want to fork out any money over something I didn't cause...but am wondering just how long I can last feeling like this. Any ideas?

Song of the week - "Talk Show Host" by Radiohead. iTunes it if you don't know it.